Articles from the Past and Present.

Nothing Man


Nothing man, going nowhere.
He is dying, as he sleeps,
In his nothing house.
He wears his nothing Mask.


Through my words...A scene from a memory


The sun is sinking away from me,
Leaving me in a silent way.
Alone in soft darkness,
Beneath a vacant blanket of sky.
Shaded thought lurks in my mind.
A blissful pretension, a painted smile,
Dancing with dreams and desire.
A beauty envisioned, yet never attained,
Known perhaps, only in that longer sleep.
Feeling my soul bleed,
I bury my head with frustration.
Splintered by deception,
Bounding on dark secrets,
My crumbling world falls through my hands.
Betrayed by one more day,
I fade away, empty and weary,
Wounded, broken, discarded.
Defeated by the vagaries of fate.


What Happened To Us?


I called to say I love you,
But no one picked up.
I wrote to tell you I missed you,
But no one responded back.
I passed by so I could be with you,
But no one answered the door.
Where are you?
Where have you been?
Are you ignoring me?
Or is it that I can't see
That you are slowly disappearing from my life.
Please don't go.
There is so much more I would like to share with you,
So much more I would like to go through with you.
So please stay for a while,
I need you.

You Stare

You all point at me.
You all pick on me.
You all laugh at me for being different,
But I laugh because you are all the same.
You all doubted me on everything I said.
You all said I wouldn't make it big.
But I bet you I will.
You all stare,
But you will never see.
There is something inside of me.


The One


When I look at you,
I wonder why,
I'm not the one to hold you when you cry.
Why I'm not the one to know how you feel,
Why I'm not the one to help you heal.
I'm not the one that holds your hand,
I'm just a friend, no more and no less,
You will always have your love,
to hold you when you cry,
to know what you feel,
and to help you heal.
Even though I'm just a friend,
I'm a friend that cares
with a heart ready to love,
Waiting, hoping to someday be more.


Hollow


A broken vision that stole my sight.
No facts behind these weary eyes.
Undone and unknown.
Pulse is slow.

Slipping underneath my life,
Drowning through sorrow.
I may be tainted but who else knows?

More sublime, losing all.
My lying eyes lie awake.
So much sufferage, so much pain
A time to take away.

Changing within, I'm falling in.
Building a blood in water scent.
Letting the fear cut from within.
Detached and feeling no regret.
Wearing the inside out.
Fading into black.....


Why Do I Love You


As I lay here thinking,
of all the things to come.
The thought of you comes up again,
I don't know where it's from.
I know that I still love you.
I think you know it too.
But still I don't why,
looking back on all we've been through.
Even though sometimes you treat me bad,
and make me want to hate.
Maybe it was written in the stars,
maybe destiny, maybe fate.
I wrote a poem just for you.
I meant every word that was there.
I let you read it afterwards,
seems like you didn't care.
So tell me why I love you so,
because I need to know.
What is it about you, girl I love,
that makes me want you so?


Tears


Tears run down my face,
Day by day.
And I still really wish that
You would have stayed.
Because of this loss
I'm stuck in pain.
And my heart feels stained,
Once again
Stained with the stench
of disbelief.
And I try night after night,
But I still can't sleep.
Awakened by tears that I've
cried for you.
Awakened by dreams
That won't come true.
And every time I close my eyes
I still see your face.
But when I search for your love,
I can't find a trace.


Despair


Subversion ideals.
Mirrors reflecting a lie.
The fateful hands of time winding in reverse.
What kind of mind am I living in?
Looking through a compromised situation.
Humbled till I'm living like a slave.
I find myself alone in the dark.
A silence surrounding me.
Down in the depths of despair.
A host of insanity lies all around.
Something tugging at my soul, pulling it down.
Feeling the chill of terror.
I watch for my shadow behind,
With fear conjuring in my mind,
Deflating and overrun.
No more than alive.
Watching as my life goes
Cold and alone.
Wearing its darkness
With an empty smile.


Chris G.
(side note: these poems are not meant to express my current mood, at least I don't think so... I could be wrong I dunno. I just felt like posting up something I had locked away in my past.)