Journal Entry 07/18/2006

I have a hard time organizing the major factions of my life. I have begun to organize the usual areas: calendars, housework, appointments, etc.; but the major parts of my life seem to just haphazardly jumble up, and I have very little control, or strength to control them.
1. Career
2. College
3. Location
4. Homeschooling
5. Religion
6. Purpose

1. Career -- Right now I am a server at Olive Garden. Not my life career choice, to be sure. Yet nothing really seems appealing, even writing has lost much of its appeal. I want to do something meaningful, yet has to be the supporting income for our family.
2. College -- I might like to go back someday, after I repay my student loans. But again, for what purpose?
3. Location -- I currently live in Huntsville, Alabama, but my husband's son lives back in Arizona (which I hate). We are going back in a few years, but I need to find an affordable area that I actually like with good job opportunities.
4. Homeschooling -- I want to homeschool my daughter when she is old enough. Yet there are quite a few requirements, as well as the added stress, and time constraints.
5. Religion -- I know my preference (Seventh-Day Adventist), and I want to be baptized. Yet I never completed the bible studies "officially" and I would also like to increase the frquency of my church attendance and daily worship.
6. Purpose -- This is the kicker. I want my time on earth to be meaningful, yet I don't see how my life fits into the Lord's plans. I know if I could just figure out what His will is, much of my dilemma would be solved.

I often feel hopeless when staring all of these factors in the face. I just need to break them down, bit by bit. and form some kind of plan. But what?