The Moment of Truth

After the first time I knew we would never go down this road again. Thats why this time I was doing it right, but preparing for the worst.
My fiance and I have been together for six years. We knew from day one thats there was no one else for us than each other. We were 1 week away from tying the knot when my husband to-be called off our wedding. It was the most hurtful experience we had had in six years together. Needless to say we began to flounder after that. The love that was there was gone and the trust, if any still existed, was not a strong as it once use to be. What once seemed like the greatest love became the biggest disappointment in both of our lives. We thought we would never recover.
That was two years ago, and rebuilding what we had has not been easy. We have two children together who saw their parents everyday fighting, arguing, unhappy with each other and therefore unhappy with life. You cant be a great parent when you hate to be at home.. and you cant be a great parent if your not considering what your children are seeing and taking in. We did neither and our children who were once loving, caring kids became black hearted and mean. Thats when I knew that something had to give. My kids were too little to have the anger we had and too young to carry the burdens they took on. As hard as it was..as a family we pulled through.
I think we both realized that the greener pastures we fought so hard to pursue, were not so green. Trying to drop four years of a beautiful relationship and carrying on with someone else so no easy task. These people we said we loved and now were going to be with in no way held a candle to the love we had for each other. Telling yourself the changes being made, whether good or bad are for the best, is a much easier task then actually making the changes and believing in your heart they are the right thing. What we were doing was not right. We tearing apart our home we fought so hard to bring together. We were letting the needs of our children suffer because of pride.
They say that children have amazing strength...and they were right. Our children were not going to let their mom and dad fall apart. Everyday our oldest son cried and demanded his dad come over to the house. When he got there,visited a while, and was then ready to leave...our son cried for him not to leave. It forced us to be in a room two minutes longer than either one of us wanted to be together. It forced us to sit down as eat as family, even when we did not want to. It forced us to acknowledge that we still loved each other regardless of what we had gone through and we still going through. If forced conversation where there was none. They gave us a second chance to be together and we took it.
Here was are two years later planning what is to be the hottest party and celebration of 2006. The invitations are send. The caterer has been paid. The guests have already started to arrive in town. How much more excited could one family be?
We have waited a long time to make our family official and finally become man and wife, nothing could ruin our day. Well almost nothing. The day before our wedding my husband to-be calls off the wedding....again. I guess I'm just not what he's looking for in a wife!

The moral of this story: Family is a great thing to have...and love is not bad either. But when sweep you problems and fears under a rug.Eventually that rug will be moved and the problems you had before will still be there if you don't handle them now. Remember you do not have to like what he says to you..but you should at least listen!


Chris Jordan