Beating Hearts Die

Why do I befriend such cod,
Why is every guy I meet so odd,
Either by spirit or by mind,
They are all unkind,
Perhaps it's me,
Maybe I see,
Too deep into someone,
Maybe I should run,
With the first sight,
And not bite,
Into the soul,
‘Cause then, I find, I pay a toll,
And I am left with pain,
While they have all the more to gain,
I think with my heart,
And my mind gets ripped apart,
My heart can't love and think,
Or I will sink,
Yet again into a weird relation,
Which causes me lots of aggravation,
I reap no rewards from what I sow,
Except a time bomb wrapped in a bow,
When it explodes, the end is near,
And I fear,
Another potential boyfriend is lost,
At a steep cost,
A broken heart, bleeding tears,
Now is when I open my ears,
And hear the ticking of the clock,
All the signs building stock,
All the clues,
And all the blues,
Washed away like writing in the sand,
They are swept away by an unseen hand,
Singing silly songs without rhymes,
Forced through my head like the pain of a blow,
All along I know,
But until now,
I have refused to bow,
To instinct and reason,
They are guilty of treason,
To my heart,
Right from the start,
He was bad,
But it's sad,
How stupid I was,
But I'm not anymore ‘cause,
I've learned,
I've burned,
And now I'm back,
With a new plan of attack,
Just hope no one's out there,
That would dare,
Trick my defenses again,
And throw me into the pig-pen,
Next time, I hope the feeling is real!