Denial

When you look into my eyes,
Won't you tell me what you see?
The smiling girl you think you know
Is not a part of me.

The smile you see is but a mask,
Covering the chaos inside.
The chaos that con trols my mind,
The chaos that I thought had died.

When I look in the mirror,
Shall I tell you what I see?
I see your smiling face, my love,
Staring back at me.

The smile I see is out of reach,
It haunts me in my dreams.
This hateful dream just will not end,
Nothing here is as it seems.

When I look at you,
Do you know what I see?
Do you feel the happiness
That you have, but is denied me?