Call me, please

My love,

I never thought that I could feel this way about another person, after the pain I've been through. Furthermore, I never thought that I could feel this way for a married man. Well, I do. As bad as society views it, I'm in love with a married man.At first, it was innocent, like a flower growing in the wild. Now, its greedy and selfish and wild. I love you with the intensity of a forest fire,burning out of control. There isn't one waking moment that I'm not thinking of you. From the time I awake from dreaming of you, until the the time my head hits the pillow at night, I can only think about you and the love I have for you. At times, I've felt so discouraged and lonely in this world. I've thought about just leaving everything behind and pursuing other things. Sweetheart, it is you and the love I have for you that has kept me here. Now, as I sit in my house, in my chair, I can only think. Do you love me? I will never ask anything of you but I just have to know. I cannot seem to stop myself, my conscience self, from thinking that you don't really love me. In fact, you couldn't love me. Or at least not as much as I love you. All day, everyday, I wait for your call, even if its just for a few minutes. I'll take anything just to at least see your number on my screen. If you call just to check on me, I usually find happiness in that. Today, you've not called me. We agreed not to be bothered by silly things such as that. Well, I am bothered! In fact, I am hot and bothered! I don't think you understand! I am hooked on you like air support (not life support). You just make all of my dreary days turn into bright days. I guess I just want you to know that I miss you.

I hope this email finds you safely