Friends

So I sit here again with a friend so seemingly near,
of all the things I should feel my only sensation is fear.
Close to me as he claims to be I am enranged at how his words and actions go unmanaged, If this continues I most surly be forever damaged.
Hard I struggle to keep my feelings in check,
for I know that as of late he has been a few cards short of a deck.
Extreme is my undrstanding of his pain,
and yet all my efforts are in vain.
I would go to any length to be made to know why I see no respect anymore in his eyes, then again mabye not for i could not stand to find out everything we had was based on lies.
So I will wittness as it all crumbles to the floor,
no long will I let him hurt me I do not need him anymore.