I Don't Know

I sat by myself today
And dreamt of the past
I'm still in love with you
I thought we two would last.
I loved you, even when you left
I sent my love across the miles
I wanted you to believe in me
I just wanted to sit and talk awile.
Just hold you for one night
Just watch you while you dreamed
My love was overflowing for you
But you qeren't what you seemed.
I lost you somehow
And still don't know why
I'm forced to cry these tears
For your love is lost in time.
You went away and broke my heart
You shattered it like glass
Why did you leave my side
Were you running from your past?
I always showed you friendship
I tried to show you love
I thought we fint together
Like a hand within a glove.
I never hurt your heart
I tried my best to cause no pain
I don't know if it's my fault
But I'm willing to take the blame.
I'm not exactly sure
Of what I will do now
Guess I'll just accept the blame
And get over you somehow.
Maybe one day in the future
I'll once again have the chance
Next time I'll start with a kiss
As we slowly begin to dance.
I'll just hold you forever
And tell you how happy I am
To have you in my life once more
To have you as my man.
I'll be able to live my dream again
Of having you as mine
I'll be floating in air
Be frozen in time.
I don't know what's wrong
Whyy won't you take my hand
I don't know why you won't
Help me to fully understand.
Just know you aren't far from my thoughts
You're someone I'll always remember
Like everytime the sun rises
And when it's cold like that November.
It's then that I'll wonder
Just where you are
Wonder if you really love
The girl inside your arms.
I'll cry for a while
Over a love that's dead and gone
Reminising on the old days
Bidding the heartache not to carry on.
The wind is my messenger
Of these deep loving words
I sent them out last night
Don't know if you heard.
I don't know what went wrong
But it's you I'll always miss
Just take my heart into consideration
Each time the two of you kiss.
Always remember the one
That never went far away
The one that said she loved you
And does still to this day.
I've often dreamt
Of you late into the night
We were so happy together
We never had a fight.
Everything was so perfect
My heart was finally whole
But now I just don't know
Why I gave you my heart and soul.
Sept. 7, 2001