I'm listening now

Why did you leave me here by myself?!
I’m blinded by your absence!
I’m tortured by your memory!
At my own reflection, I whence!

This is all my fault!
I’ll never stop missing you!
How stupid was I ?!
I should have listened to you!

My tears fall now on
an old photo of us.
My soul is screaming-
I’ve had enough!

Memories from that night
are fresh in my mind.
I had to leave you alone
so that help I could find!

I let you die on that pavement:
Cold, dark and alone.
When I returned my buzz had gone.
I remember hearing your last moan.

I held your head cradled in my arms,
rocking us back and forth.
I was screaming, crying uncontrollably.
I just knew you couldn’t hold on anymore.

I was driving that fateful night.
I drank all that beer.
If only I had listened to you,
then you might still be here.