Yearning

I'm sick of thinking of you
of the love we never shared
of the times I never acted
of this ache deep inside
that comes from every where and no where
cant you leave me
and all my dreams
in madness
that seeps through my skin
burrowing into my heart
festering in my thoughts
spreading like an incurable disease
I hate you for this
I despise you for this
and yet
my heart yearns openly for you