Archetypal Adolescent Agony

I.
Your words tear
         Bleeding, scarring,
Deep gouges
My heart being trampled, becoming careworn and thinned out
Your repeated use should make it
    Calloused
                Hard
Yet it just gets softer
Almost melting
Falling apart easier each time
    I fall apart easier each time.

I’ve never died before, but it has to be close to this.
I let you kill me, over and over
         And over.
But I still can’t let you go.
Everything I do is a mistake
            In your eyes
You say I hurt you, yet the next minute you’ve bounced back
    And I’m the one left crying
A huddled mess on the floor

II.
Talking in riddles
As I spin in circles
         About to collapse
Chest heaving, eyes streaming
I don’t know what to make of you.
Just another tear, only big enough to let out
         One more drop
I guess I don’t need that much blood
My heart is shrinking.
         Folding in
         Deflating.

I’ve always been told I’m strong
But I never knew pain before I met you
         I’m still standing
Won’t accept help.
But I feel resistance ebbing
         What if let you win?
                I end up broken.
         I’ll have to pick up my own pieces
Reassemble the jigsaw you’ve made my heart
There isn’t enough time for that
         Too many pieces
         With ragged edges
That won’t fit back together.

III.
I held it in for so long
More and more glue to keep the pieces together
My heart couldn’t swell anymore
I lost another battle the day I let you make me
         Cry
A dam inside me burst
         I’ll never be able to close the gate

I can’t even pick one image of my heart.
Trampled,
    Bleeding,
Melting,
    Tearing,
Swelling,
    Bursting,
                   Broke.
I don’t know
I don’t understand you anymore
I probably never did

It hurts.