The Lonely Soul

Tears that are ready to spill from these swollen eyes of mine,
Are grieving over the olden time,
Because of a heart unwilling to let go,
My body and soul went with the flow,
Swimming in uncharted waters both dark and cold,
The very thing I hated is what I behold,
Turning back is easier said than done,
For my innocent days were long gone,
Taken away by heartache & pain,
I was almost driven insane,
Wholeheartedly never to love someone as I loved you ever again,
Closing the entrance to my heart from all but suffering and pain,
Wanting to open my heart,
But the fear of sorrow my mind impart.