My chemical lover

Passing the cemetary I can feel the whispers oozing into my ears like thick oil bittersweetly calling out my name

I try to ignore it but come to the realization that it will probably always be this way to remind me from where I came

I begin to feel my stomach turn in knots and a ghostly creeping in my veins letting me know it's not over yet

The grim reapers been at my side so many times and for my life he is willing to make a bet

The sickness overcomes me it seems he is closer to winning my soul

I feel myself drifting further away from my ultimate goal

The steel bites my flesh like a starving parasite searching for an eager vein to realease its venom into

It finds what it's looking for and takes over my body like an everlasting dark emptiness and the reaper says "I told you"

He hisses to me in a gut wrenching laugh that I will never forget

My mind is tormented, all I can feel is bitterness, hate and regret

Stealing, and lies are the only truth now I will do whatever it takes

To be with the love of my life all the time I need to make these mistakes

Making a mess of everyones life that tries to get in my way

I have to dance with the devil now each and every day

Sickness once again hits me like the plague but this time it is much worse

Letting me know that this is for real I have sentenced myself to a curse

I just let it overcome me without giving in this time feeling each and every pain inside

I can hear their laughter inside of my head but I just choose to go along for the ride

Nine days later I'm out of the fog and realize I made a mess of everything and everyone

But most of all I hurt myself and did things I never would have done

It's been one month since I last danced as the reaper laughed in my face

The scars on my body are a sour sweet reminder of how fast I can go back to that place

So now when the reaper calls my name instead of cringing with fear

I warmly embrace his calling holding him oh so near

Remembering where I could be

And thankful about where I am