escape

I cry
as I lie
in this-
cage of sheets
bound wrists and feet
contemplate
the twist of fate
my- situation
caused by the deviation
from the path of the Holy
and I coldly
chastise me
and excuse he
who would violate
with his hate

I wonder-
did I put up a fight,
protest with might?
or did I lead
his greed
to feed
upon my inner need
for validation,
carnal salvation?
my insecurity
blinding me
to the fire
of your desire
for control
of my soul
or at least my body
as you rob me
no regard for my spirit
I scream, you don't hear it
God speaks, you don't fear it
the Truth, you push me near it

I am not your property
your power can't contain me
your words do not shame me
I refuse to blame me

from the ashes I rise
when the fires baptize
reborn with new pride
twice the size in the eyes
of all who would marginalize
my experience, my status
my worth and my pain
or label me victim
for political gain
survivor, triumphant
these words I would choose
because I broke the cycle
defy all who abuse