Seconds before the end, like just before an earthquake, a dog howled and a flock of seagulls flew from above the roof. I felt it too, all over my skin and also deep within, digging, as fast as I could, to hide the treasured seeds, that would allow me to rise and grow from my shattered self, one day. Then, the whole world exploded and I watched it all happen, witnessing my own end. In slow motion, the books, once on the shelves, opened their wings and flew. Pens and pencils, pins and paper clips, erasers, old coins and a plastic toy camel crowded the air above my head. A bottle of red ink broke, staining the wallpaper. I quickly interpreted the shape as an atomic mushroom. A plane crash on the ceiling killed an imaginary pilot, the universe was blowing up and so did my whole room. In the middle of the maelström I recognized drifting pieces of my splintered self. Scatterings of questions left unanswered, whirled together, with the tiny fragments of a restless mind, that couldn't stand answers left unquestioned. I watched flowers turn into thousands of butterfly-petals flying around, slowly falling onto the ground. There, at my feet, I discovered on a thousand pieces of a broken mirror, the puzzle of my innermost secrets. A helpless child in a damaged place, I found shelter under an old table. Holding tight all that was left of me, although it cut like broken glass. I wept silently and I bled, sitting still, waiting for the storm to end. Won second prize at Kansas Poet Contest, February 2007, also featured in the Poetry Newsletter about imagery. |