A poem i wrote 7 years ago when my marriage was in trouble |
You gave me your heart to protect from harm and pain. But, I let my guard down and, dropped it and now it is stained. Because of the stain your love has turned to hate, and I have cheated the stars and fate. Now I’m looking for away to mend your stained heart. I’m looking for the way but, I just don’t know were to start. If only you could see into my mind you would see what I think of you. If you could see into my heart you would see how much I love you. If you could see into my soul, I could reverse the hate. Because I know you were born to be my soul mate. I know I was the one who forced the blindness into your eyes. if you can’t find it in you to see through I will be the looser for all my lies. Now I find my self in a burning maze. I just can’t think because my head is in a daze. I can’t find my way out as all turns are dead ends. Is this real or is it pretend. At one time it was as easy as a straight path. Now it is a horrible wrath. I know there is a way out for I see glimpses of light. But this struggle to find my way out has become a bloody fight. Although there is some fight left in me because I remember the past. If the momentum of this struggle persists I feel I will not last. My hart and soul has become blooded and weak from this lasting contest. As I get hit again I wipe the blood and continue forward knowing a need a rest. On the outside I function just the same. But on the inside I’m full of pain and shame. This is not a constant this burning maze of mine. For it is in my head there for could just be a sign. Yes this is a sign and it is only half real. A conflict between the emotions on the outside and the true emotions on the inside that I feel. This burning maze that consumes me day after day can be put out. I just have to find the right rout. Just as I speak this last phrase again it blows up in my face and I realize it is just a test. And now I a strange calm comes over as I just do my best. As it swallows me as I contest. For one day I will be back with strength in my fight. I will extinguish this blazing maze and make every thing right. |