Tear Drop

I'm thinking of a memory
Crystal clear and almost real
Surrounded by my loved ones
Everyone inches near
My head is on a pillow
My feet are bare and cold
I can not move my body
My breathing seems immobile
A tear escapes my eyelids
A smile erased from my face
The pain is unbearable
As they pinch my skin
In the same place, as before
How did I end up here
Why did I not learn
I chose to do it
It was my choice
No one else was in the car
Could have been the easy way out
Could have been selfish
It could have been for attention , or
To make everyone feel pity
No matter why I'm still here
Laying in a bed of pain
Unable to tell you why
because my mind is no longer here
The road seemed too sure
The lines so suffocating
My hands leaned to the left, then
back to the right
Lines disappeared.
I was breaking free
Rolling down a hill of green
Smashing into a tree
My life did not flash before me
I had nothing I could remember
A tear escaped my eyelid
A smile was erased from my face
My family stood around me
Slowly they faded away
It was my choice
You do not know why
I almost committed suicide
You will never know the truth
I shall never tell you why
My reasons are untold
My actions speak for themselves
I held so much in, it burst out on the road
My arms were bleeding
My legs seemed unattached
I couldn't stop shaking
The lights they soon came
Police ruled it "accidental"
Must have been ice
I lay inside my solemn mind
Screaming out to all
Help me! Help me!
I can not save myself
A tear escaped my eyelid
A smile was erased from my face
My family stood around me
Slowly I faded away.....