"Feelings Collide"

“Feelings collide” By: James Mills

Things in my life aren’t going well right now
At times I feel lazy and like a fat cow
I know in reality that’s not true
But sometimes I just feel like I don’t know what to do
At times I’m the guy I want to be
Other times I’m just not me
I have so much on my plate
Sometimes it would be nice just to clean my slate
At times I’m depressed and I’m alone
No friend’s to hang out with; no one will talk on the phone
My friends seem to never be there
Talking to my parents…no that I won’t dare
I just want a sense of happiness
Not a sense of hopelessness
At school I laugh and just do my own thing
At home to pass the time I avoid people and to get things out I try to sing
My mind is confusing me to were I don’t know what’s the truth and what’s a lie
People are so deceitful and end up hurting you some times I don’t want to even try
I feel as though I’m on my heels
My mind is going insane, spinning me around, as I want to know how that feels
How it feels to never be hurt or used and to be shown that you belong
Even though you’ve been that nice guy you’ve shown that you’re serious and strong
But people don’t even care the hell about you or how good you really are
Good people are genuine & kind but people are se damn mean they take lying to far
The crap I’ve seen & been through fire builds in my eyes & anger grows in my fist
The more crap I experience and stuff I see the more I’ll be pissed
I’m starting to grow tired of all these people who continue to use and abuse
This time I have so much anger and strength I will not lose
That nice guy you once knew is still there
Now I’m just not going to show how much I care
Although deep down I will have my passion and my heart
This time I will be more shut down and I won’t let anything bad start
Right now I can feel the anguish and power that runs through out me
I’m so pissed…there’s so much anger, fire, and rage that you can not see
In the beginning I went from not knowing what to do
Now with all my knowledge and anger…I can see right through you