I never have but I always will...

Sometimes I get this feeling that you don't love me anymore.
My friends may try to tell me that your just hiding the way you feel
But I've never known you hide from a challenge or give into fear.
I guess I'm calling our love a challenge, although who could blame me.
Every love is complex but certain ones are worth the saving.
Of course there are arguements over who takes out the trash, and times when you have to deal with senseless crap.
There is complaining that there is never time alone and that you're never even home.
There may even be an occasional 'do you even love me anymore'. But none of that matters because when you lay down to sleep the person you love is the first thing your dreams.
It's alright if you don't love me anymore, because I don't you either.
I don't love the way that you get dimples when you smile, or the way that even your happy laugh still sounds somewhat evil.
I don't love the way you walk, and I certainly don't love the way you talk.
The way your voice gets louder when your passionate on a subject, or the way you laugh mockingly at what the other person says.
I don't love your brilliant mind, or your witty comeback lines.
I never loved the way you your hands fit perfectly in mine, or the way that time stands still when your lips touch mine.
I never loved the way you whispered I love you, or the way you'd stare at me.
I never loved the looks you gave me when you though I wouldn't see.
I never loved the way that I always knew you loved me, or the way that you always knew I loved you too.
I never dreamed of you or wished to have my dreams come true.
I never pictured you in my mind and I never thought that you were kind.
I never thought you'd be a good father to the many kids I'd have.
And I never thought to be content with whatever we might have.
I never watched the sun rise and hoped you'd think of me, and I never looked at the stars and wished you were there with me.
I never really wanted you, and I certainly never liked you.
Maybe you can tell a lie about it, ot maybe it is truth, but I have to admit that my love has always been true.
I need you more than any other, and I love you more then life it's self.
My heart has always been yours for the taking, and is sadly now yours for the breaking.

~*~*~Ava~*~*~