Someone has lost touch

A letter to someone I need back but have lost at the moment

Look I need you
It might seem like I don’t want to talk or be there with you
But I do
I need to talk
I just need a hug and a friendly smile
I am pushing away but I cant help it
Just stay there for me
Please
I am calling for your help and love
don’t take everything at face value
It all goes deeper
Instinct tells me to push away, I don’t know why but I do
But you can help me stop it
Help me through everything
Its overwhelming and scary
Its scary to let you in but I have
I hope you know that I love and care for you
Maybe you will never know
But hopefully this will help
I just hope you know that I do need you
That you have helped me in so many ways
There aren’t any words to explain how you have helped
And I know I might not show it sometimes
I don’t want to do what I’ve been doing , pushing you and everyone else away
But I have and I am truly sorry
I hope you understand and will take me back if you have lost me
I am here waiting for your love
I always will be, so never forget that if you need support or help
I am here no matter what
That is what friends are for
I hope you would call me a friend.

Love.
the one who has lost touch.