Easiest Way

Have you ever wanted to be alone,but not feel lonely?
Have you ever wanted to be in love, but not feel hurt by it?
Have you ever wanted to be so small that nobody would notice you
And hide away in the darkest corner of your room and drown yourself in tears?
Have you ever thought about ending it here and now,without any second thoughts, regrets or any childish fears?

Have you ever thought about jumping off a tall buildings roof,having only in mind that thought of freedom and something better waiting at the other end?
The pain in your chest is killing you and more tears start forming in your eyes
You open your arms open wide
And jump without looking back.
The nights fresh and cold air swooshes past by you,
And for a moment time seems to stop
Just for a moment you feel nothing at all
No worries,
No more pain and no more tears.
Everything's gone.
Everybody's gone.

I wonder if I'd do that
I'd stop crying.
I'd stop wishing to die
And I'd stop thinking of ways to end my life.

I'm weak and people think I'm strong.
I feel pain and people think there's nothing wrong.
I'm scared and I don't know where to go,
I don't know what to do
To stop feeling the way I do.

Every time I tell somebody they get scared at first but then they think I'm joking.
I guess it's better that way.
I guess they don't deserve to know and feel what I feel right now.
And I guess sometimes I cry because of nothings,
And sometimes I feel sad for no reason.
I don't know why,
Nobody knows why...

I'm sorry I feel this way,
I'm sorry life made me so weak,
I'm sorry I cry from stupid things
And I'm sorry I sometimes want to die
Or that I think of committing suicide.

I know it's not a way of solving things,
But it seems to be the easiest way
To make every bad thing go away.