A twisted insight...

Consequences...


Am I good for her? Is she good for me?
Time will only tell, but will either of us see?
So many obstacles, and so few similarities,
How can we hope for prosperity?
We bask in the warm glow,
of love and loving.
But the past and present collide,
at our bonds, they are tugging.

So many fears surround me,
and make me confused.
Do we truly love eachother?
Or are we both being used?
What I feel is strong, and I know she feels the same,
but does strength of the emotion prove the validity of the risk?
I can't hurt her, not after I've made her sane,
but am I causing more damage by letting her get attached?

She believes that I'm the one,
but I can't shake the question on my mind.
Is she truly the one for me?
Or has "Love" made me blind?
It couldnt be lust, that makes us connect,
but could it be fear?
Fear of being alone?
Doubts are all I hear...

I want this so much, that I worry it's being forced,
these emotions created out of a need to be wanted.
But, in the back of my mind, I want more...
want what I never believed I could have...
But to take what I now have the confidence to attain,
would just prove my greed...

I am ugly inside...
with wants and desires, that ignore the well-being of others...
Ignoring these fantasies, is the closest I can achieve to NOT being that which I despise...
but will I stay happy? Or am I even doing the right thing, by putting her before myself?

Maybe she would be better with someone she satisfies,
and maybe I am destined to be alone...
so that I can't twist anyone elses soul but my own...