Heart Breaker

I can't hold on
To your ghost.
You're so far away,
Yet still so close.
I have faultered
More than once.
Your presence lingers;
My life it haunts.
I wish I'd never done it.
How I wish I could be true.
But it's so terribly hard
When I don't have you.
I never meant to hurt you.
It's not what I intended,
When I asked you to come back to me;
Or for the relationship we mended.
Baby you know me.
You know who I am,
Better than I do.
So I hope you understand,
Why I'm saying what I'm saying...
...That right now we can't be.
I know the pain this causes you.
Know that it's killing me.
To make it up when you get home
There's nothing I won't do.
But right now I can't lie to me
And will not decieve you.
Please believe that I still love you.
Believe that I mean well.
Believe that it will stay that way,
Until Heaven becomes Hell.
I don't want a relationship
With anyone but you.
I just can't live with all this guilt.
It's tearing me in two.
I know what I did was wrong.
I'm so sorry that I failed you.
When you return we can start over..
...If you'd still like to.
I pray one day you'll come back to me
And we can truely be together.
Only then can we begin
Our own private forever.