My Eyes

My eyes saw you every time you walked through the door
They saw every event you were ever in
They saw how you never noticed me
They saw how when you were told about my feelings, you laughed and walked away
They cried silent tears when you told me you were disgusted by my feelings for you
They stung with envy when you asked "her"out
They filled with tears from too many questions when i saw you kiss her
They widened with shock when i heard she cheated on you
They saw you cry because of her betrayal
They shed tears with you for i would never hurt you like that
They saw how you foolishly took her back
They burned with hate when she cheated on you again
They saw you cry day after day with the pain of what she did
They saw the phone ring when you called me
They saw you at my front door when you needed someone to talk to , someone to listen
My eyes
They saw me tell you that it was to late
They saw me close the door and start to cry
because ti know i would never hurt you like that,
but you wouldn't know because you never gave the a chance
My tired eyes saw the knife on the bedside table
They saw me pick it up through blurry tears
all the pain of how you treated me came flooding back,
mixing with the sharp sensation on the inside of my wrist
Can you see me now?
as paramedics rush into my house
Can you see me now?
as bloody cuts cover my body
Can you see me now?
as the police hand you a blood stained note
Can you see now all the pain you put me through?
All the scars and all the blood,
it's all because of you
So i hope you understand,
and i hope you see
because i know it was really you that killed me
Part of me says thank you
for now that my eyes are closed
I can't see you cry as you realized that i was always there
and that you passed me up for the one person who always caused you pain
Now that its too late
you realized how much i cared
Finally, for the first time in my life
you actually see me.