About my depression from 2004 to 2005. It's taken me time to write about it. |
Over the summer the sadness sets in Gets into my heart and under my skin Go back to school, see all my friends there But if I told them the truth, would anyone care? Keep my mouth shut, hold my head high Try not to falter, try not to cry If I don’t tell a soul, clog it all up inside In time, I’ll explode from my dark-sided pride Or is it just shame? Is it all in my head? My own fault, that I’d rather be dead? Make it ‘til winter, curl up in my room Wait out the storm in the darkness and gloom And it only gets worse, when it’s finally spring The cold may be gone, but I still feel the sting Things aren’t getting better as time’s churning by All the new life makes me break down and cry The turmoil builds up, the pressure gets heavy We all bloom in spring, but I’ll never be ready Worse time in my life, the best time to fall I’m one heck of a trooper if I get through it all And so I decide that enough is enough I’m through with this sickness, I’m through giving up Feeling sorry for me, has never been right So forever, I bury my sadness tonight |