Mother Come Home

What worked yesterday
May not happen today
Let alone tomorrow
If you're lucky to have a future.

Nothing, if anything was expected of me
I graduated from High School
"Big deal", she said
"There's an exception to every rule"
My parents, Mother to be exact
Prayed from the day I was born
I would marry a rich man
She didn't believe
I could make my own tracks
So much faith in the lord
So little in her only daughter.

In her private moments
She yearned for me to be
As ignorant and uneducated
Dependent on the preying eyes of mother earth
A lifetime award
For the victimized underachiever
Still obsessing about trauma years before
When I chose the close the door of the past
I was accused of being a sell-out
Damned to hell for leaving her behind
Joining the ranks of a colorful world
That she refused to understand.

Resentments would be put aside
Whenever I gave her my last dime
Covered in tears of guilt
Snatched by greasy hands
A daughter's glue...

Yet, for all of her flaws
And there are many!
I love her unconditionally
She doesn't feel the same
That's okay for now
Someone has to pay for her burial
Fate has put its claws inside of me.

I'm still trying to please her
I don't need her approval
That's my mind speaking
Yet, my heart is aching
For her to be proud of me
For all of my personal successes
I'm a failure in what matters most
The undying affection of my mother.

July-03-Perkins Rd