How Could You?

How could you...
make me smile with a single glance
and make me shiver as we danced,
only to rip out my fucking heart
and tear my very soul apart?

How could you...
kiss me and hold me in your arms,
letting me fall victim to all your charms,
as you looked into my eyes and told me
all the lies I was too blind to see?

How could you...
pick me up when I was down
and turn even the worst days around,
then suddenly confirm all of my fears
and become the reason for all of my tears?

How could I
be so naive and so forgiving
and believe that life really is worth living
after everything you've put me through,
when I knew deep down it was never true?

How could I
force myself to truly believe,
when I knew all along you would deceive,
and make me regret it all?
I can't believe you had the gall.

How could I
sit here writing these worthless poems to you,
hoping that one day you will get a clue?
I used to think that you were in the wrong,
but now I realize it was me all along.