Hopeless Hope

How could this be felt right
This shivering emotion of certainty
It bothers me with sleepless night
Waking up from bed with tears of anxiety.

Knowing not how to make you feel
To remind you that I am here
Somehow I wish am  numb inside
To forsake this devotion that I couldnot hide.

Sometimes I wanted to run
But this heart never wanted to break
Yearning still for a forlorn hope
Too much for a sandess to take.

There were moments I wanted you near
Less times to conquered by fear
Though hopeless it is to love you
Where i'm just shedding tears for you.

Without you is an inevitable distress
For you are the crimson drop of my existence
But your goodbye silently breaking this glass
To create an end with one slash.