Forgiveness

How to say the words?
Those words we don’t feel like
Can have any meaning anymore
Why seek the forgiveness?
What is the reason we always
Always go to others
To find what we
Eventually
May find within ourselves?

I am not strong
There is no way I can help
Be of any help
To anyone
Helpless is the word
The word that fits my position

Can you restore me
To my prior position,
And at the same time
Forgive me
Can you, God?

Sad at not getting an answer
From out there
Dragging down, all the feelings
Forging them, ever so strong

In solitude, the story went on
A shadow passed
A conscious shadow
An earlier friend
No, still a friend
Dead is dead
But what matters
If not the future
The Now

Rising above the depth
God had forsaken me
I just left him alone
And at that, the strength was found
Strength I had recognized in God

We live our own lives
Who can forgive us
If not our friends?
Who can forgive us
If not ourselves?

If we cannot do the task
Then why should God?
We are the living
The creatures with thought
And with the strength
Our lives combined
Created the enmity
The massive being
In that we left our strength
And mistook it for hope

I rise above trial
I do not kneel
The power I gave
Has been retaken
My being is completed

As forgiveness I grant
As forgiveness received
But I cannot take what is
Yours to bear
By releasing it, just forgive
Forgive and forget
They say

No!

Remember
Remember to forgive
Do not let that
Be the domain of God
For that is only
What we want it to be
We created it
With all our power
Our strength

We got weak
And in our weakness
After being creative
Turned away from ourselves
And to the created

Always remember
Forgive and relish
That it is you
You who have forgiven
In that we grant and we receive
The forever sought
Forgiveness