Freedom

I feel a sense of fear wash over
It overcomes me
And I am carried into the unknown.
Direction is lost, I do not know my way.

Tears fall, slowly, softly
they do not seem real
but to me they are
I cannot stop, I cannot leave

A memory, a photograph
a blinding flash, and I am back...
there
I need not be, if only I could find the words

Emotions run awry, I cannot tame them
they are let loose, into the wild
into a world where they may not be welcome
yet I feel it is time to let them go

I am alone, deserted
surrounded by a place in which I am unfamiliar
I desire to go home,
but I no longer know if it exists

Free
Alive
I run into the darkness
I have nothing to prevent me

I am alive, I can breathe
I can be there, whenever it occurs..

STOP!!!
I am back, I am not here
I am not there
I am stuck
Freedom is not what I deserve.