A Thousand Times

A thousand times I have found
I must pay the price
For this life somehow
All along I could not see
How slowly it was destroying me
Could no longer look into myself
Lost all hope to be myself
A thousand times I have found
I will pay the price
I’m unable to set it right
Can not see
What could not be
It is haunting me
All the times that I must cry
Before it ever can be found
For the price is much too high
It’s too late failed escape
Must find a way it’s the only way
Every night I looked into the mirror
Despised by my own reflection
For my face has been replaced
Fuck this I hate this shit
Get myself off of this
Give up the fight
I’m unable to get it right
Until the end of time
I’m lost never to be found