Consider It All: Consider it me

Consider me sad, Consider me unsound
My pen
My heart
My ink
My soul

Consider it all
Consider it me

I’m a normal person
Looking for a way out
Like a simple guy with eyes
That can’t seem to see
I am someone
I, do not, want to be
I say what I think
I mean what I say
I am a carpet,
Walked on
Every single day
I’m like wallpaper
You forget I’m there
I’m invisible
You look right through me
You think I’m tough
Maybe even mean
Its just
I have feelings
Unlike the rest
Of you Fucking machines

Consider me passionate, Consider me sullen
My pen
My heart
My ink
My soul

Consider it all
Consider it me

I walk through the desert
Expecting to find a stream, I do

My friends,
I’m glad for my friends
They give me a different perspective
And help me see life
Their exaggerated actions
Makes it appear like
Life is bad
I can pick flowers
And my friends
But not my dad

I like diversity
I love romantic surprises
As life is better
When there’s more

I have little
If any love
When I find love
I won’t have to think twice
I am Ostracized
And left out in the dark

I’m not seen as one in a billion
I’m seen as
A small guy in a big world

Consider me lonely, Consider me misunderstood
My pen
My heart
My ink
My soul

Consider it all
Consider it me

I grew up with false parents
Unlike any child should

I have no one
Who knows me
They only guess who I am
By what they see

The memories I like
Are the ones I cannot keep
The memories I hate
Are the ones I cannot lose
They’re the only ones I have
Such as bullies
Such as Belding
A school from my past

Now, when I look around school
I only see
Herds of sheep
I am never alone
Except at home
But I am always lonely and misunderstood

They say take the drugs
I said only an idiot should
Therefore I would
High on medications
High on dreams
To me life,
Is never as it seems
The image is distorted
There’s more
There’s less
And often
I’m completely wrong

Consider me an observer, Consider me Blind
My pen
My heart
My ink
My soul

Consider it all
Consider it me

I can step outside my body
But still see the real me

I have eyes that can see
When in school
I see
The lonely
The left out kids wishing to make bombs
The popular guys with their girlfriends
Shallow people with other perfections
They're always together

I'm sure you see them to
But I see the world in all its color
Too bad its only black and white

Nothing full of happiness
No mercy
No life

Consider me someone new; Consider me an expert
My pen
My heart
My ink
My soul

Consider it all
Consider it me

Changing is something we all go through
From Holding hands, being wild
To Holding back tears, faking smiles
From From mommy and daddy love you so much
To Realizing no one cares and life is tough
From cute clothes, beach blond hair
To A dark shade of black, due to knowing, no one cares
From singing joyously, dancing in the rain
To Felling all the pressure, getting all the blame
From “we’ll be friends forever”, that was the best ever
To “Friends for this year”, putting hearts through the shredder
From knowing and doing nothing, being more than happy
To Knowing too much, except how to be involved how to pretend to be content

Consider me a book of science; Consider that knowlege useless;Consider me useless
My pen
My heart
My ink
My soul

Consider it all
Consdier it me

I sit here in my room
Alone, just me and my laptop
And the internet
With nothing for me to do
So of all things I could do
I do not much

Just expand knowlege
Look for information
On physics and chemistry
But I somehow
Don't follow all these rules

So All I Learn Is A Lie!!!

So what I do enstead
Since I don't want to feel like an alien
I Turn that knowlege
Into creative abilities

I write poetry
Draw a little bit
And try to figure out
How to daydream and breathe
At the same time

Consider me defenseless; Consider me a soldier
My legs
My chest
My arms
My body and mind

I am an army of one
Able to take care of myself and yet not at all
I depend on people to make life not boring
I depend on people to help me do things day to day
But I still train alone
I can easily be killed as it is
I'm defenseless
I'm just preparing for Basic Training
Then I will be a soldier
Be ready to take on anything, anyone
And yet I will be defenseless alone
For even the most powerful needs allies
In the next year,
I will gain many powerful enemies
But even more importantly I will gain allies
So I will not be defenseless like I am now

All above is me
Consider it so

Consider it all; Consider me all of these...
Sad
Unsound
Passionate
Sullen
Lonely
Misunderstood
An Observer
Blind
Someone New
An Expert
An encyclopedia of science
Some one useless
Defenseless
a soldier

Consider it all
As I’m considered me