fear love

I don't fear love I run from it every chance I get. Too much time alone has left me with a feeling of independence. I have grown accustom to there being only me to rely on. When I fuck up only I'm held accountable for my actions. No one else is to be held responsible for my misgivings of what life is to hold for one such as me. Too many times I have blamed others for not accepting me. It is time to stand alone and feel the guilt that life has to offer me. One more morning waking up alone will not bother me anymore. I have come to accept this fate life holds for me. I can't look back and say I don't enjoy it. What is there left to believe in, but that I walk this earth alone and fight against it at every turn in the road.