Brainwash

They are trying to brainwash me. My head hurts, it's
telling me not to believe the expected. It's telling me
that it's all in my head that everything I believed is a
fraud and must not be toyed with.
They are trying to get to my heart. Tempting me with love,
and unjustly situations. "I won't have any part of it," I say
right before I puke the butterflies out of my stomach.
The beating of my heart is in common time, but it is a
little too common for me.
I foil their plans by going for a run to my impounded
car. There i break in and drive away. Far way where my
brain and heart will not be tempted with everyday problems
and hopeless love letters that only want the one thing.