Slow motion addict

Slow motion addict.

You are addicted to what is restricted.
You find ways to work around the mess you've made.
Your morality begins to fade.
Life has no meaning.
This addiction your needing.
You try to find ways to get by
without the satisfaction.
Suddenly your life becomes a distraction.
Nothing seems real not even the pain you feel.
You cover it up with your addiction.
You'll be dead in 1yr that's your prediction.
Nothing matters.
Everything you have shatters.
Your hand reaches for the strength to stand.
You need a helping hand.
No one is there.
You blame them this isn't fair.
Your the one who said you didn't care.
Your numbness begins to wear off.
Your eyes fill up with tears.
Where has your life gone all these years?
You liked it better to run and hide.
Instead of dealing with the pain inside.
You slowly realize.
Your mask is no longer a disguise.
Your life has been disrupted
by this addiction you corrupted.
You can't think.
You begin to sink.
Your drowning deep.
Who will be there to pull you up you ask?
Relaying on someone else is a difficult task.