JUST COME BACK

as always taking my dinner, i was taking to one old friend who obliged me by joining me on dinner, idea was to end loneliness and to finally long solitude hours. it was bakes presto with cottage cheese, lasagna and baked golden breads with some margaritas to complete the course. suddenly my fiend ask me to pass some lasagna and i started to laugh, although its lasagna but it pronounces as lasania not lasagne .friend told me what matters is the savor and that is the thing makes some sense not some stupid idioms, although its about to fill your appetite, to enjoy the great victuals and the most important to do it in your premises and by this i went to some old memories , any ways not very important ones. friend asked me "what are your plans, your birthday is coming" with a sight of revelation i asked back "how many days are left?" " 4 days to go dear, today is 5 august" it drew me back again to those old memories and this time i was not able to arrive back.

summers were just ended and it was starting of raining season when i took interest in him first time. i know him from last 2 and a half year because we were living in the same building and the apartment was just12 next in the same row so you can say waking distance for sure. he was nothing different than the boy of that age more than a boy lesser than a man, was just fluctuating between right and wrongs of life and was trying to take some wise decision to shape his coming life. its was just first time i met him after coming to notice he came like a good neighbour who always want to make their acquaintances to bonds like next of kin. warm soothing and calmer with proper courtesy to talk to a stranger and suddenly asked me you do not know how to smile. of course i know,than why you do not i have never seen a single one . he went to his way and i thought what the hell he think of him and i know how to take care of my self. i am egoistic and predominant from a long time so its not a surprise these thoughts came in my mind. oki over , after some day i met him again he offered me life because i was on feet . i said no and thank you for your kindness and stepped out. suddenly i found some one was coming behind me. it was him and told me at least i can have the pleasure to accompanied you although you never allow me to do the same. i laughed and than together we came back to our edifice our sweet home but the separate ones which i never knew are going to be the same.

it was the first time i took interest in some who was nothing like to be stand on the standard which i have passed for some one, but i do not know why i like him. anyways it s the life and some time we have these situations goes on and on. and than i have realized so many thing after that his constant starring towards me, his regular accompanying to me and the most important to come and watch television in my house by saying his own house is not good enough to watch his perfect show which even i had not seen him to watch even in my house. most of the time his eyes used to fix on me and than i did realize the meaning of favorite show and why he was not able to watch it in his home. i am not dumb nor blind i can see every thing and so do me all. i started realize his especial attention towards each and every single move includes how i talk, i laugh , foot steps my sneezes my perfumes and the most important my senses.time started passing by and we mixed up now long hours chats and talks .it was new thing for both of us and every new addiction feels great and so we did like it a lot. one day he asked me how would you
allow a person to swap in . well first i laugh if it would be rain at 2 o clock in night and the person is neat i will an dafter i guess 5-6 days my door bell rang and i found him neat and clean and was properly bathed. i was shocked and he smiled and asked me to let me in. at that day i laughed a lot not because of his mischief but but on his naive attitude that he believed on every lat word i told him and kept them for sure he was great. and finally after passing the days the date came which i have mentioned earlier the first 5 august

it was the first time i touched him with my very genuine intentions showing him the best way to represent your love to touch some ones cheeks with your own lips. he felt shy poorer that a girl even he was innocent more than firefly fly . but i started filling some correlation which was soothing me by overcoming my sorrow full loneliness and untouched thoughts and i got a good listener. used to hang a lot dinners outing drives and roaming each in every way. most of his time started to spend in my house and his mailman , his glossary keeper and other man started to deliver things at my place, would have thought that its his address. some thing that was started on . after a long while he told me what he had felt for me and feeling the same when he first saw me. i was not surprised some thing like that was in my mind too i was not innocent or too dull to get things. but i thought the wisest thing to accept his the same because if he has not changed in 2 year he would be in the rest and that person needs no change or deviation in love what every body does and he kept his words. used to care foe small thing. rations , wardrobe, etc . but one that was not changed the way he used to stare me and hos pooping smile after that and my thoughts were getting to be more and more about his unchangeability, was enormously happy i got what i always wanted , finally a love that would never break down.

long nights together 12 to 5 in morning just talking and where i fell asleep he helped me to get on bed my embrassing me in dark without making a single noise and felt alert for faults and than for him, used to yawn in his work place but never did complain. had always eaten stuff of my choice i really do not know whether had any like or dislike but always been happy just by accompanying me. still remember that day we watched our first movie and as usual i discussed things abut movie and plot , and was surprised to find that he did not have any idea about snaps at all. and the reason what i got from , made me laugh like a child and than feel more carves like a hot blooded woman. that the whole time he stared me and saw me not the flicks his staring habits never changed at the time we remain together or else i too never wanted that they would be changed.he was possessive like every body and on my birthday he deleted the message came me before his wishing just to be the first one the greeted me on my most especial day he was like that and always remained the same same joy same fun same love and every thing was like a person who can love more than ever from last day and you started to feel like completed. but one day he disappeared. i lost him and had no i idea where is he now i do not it at all. i looked every where asked every body but he just vanished like anything and i did not know what to do, where to go and how to search. and every thing ended in sudden 5 august became so important for me because that was very first day i touched him and felt things for him . the day started a new connection and new bridge, at lasted with any call. so many time i have missed him but there is nothing i can do expect to hope because it is some thing not in my hands. i want him back and the same days of spring all staring, possessiveness, smiles, long waits and last night hours, bell ring at 2 , his neatness in rain , everything and the same touch but now i can not do any thing more than to feel sorry, really want him and can plea him to come back where ever he or whether he can listen me or the entity if can pass my passages please ask him to come back i want to stay with you and not able to sustain my life without you, not able to forget those moments so please
just come back.........