Love Unmasked

I'm sick of it.
Sick of this.
Sick of lying to make myself seem interesting,
faking my emotions just so you'll care,
smiling just to show you I'm paying attention,
and making you think everything you say to me
means more than just words.
That every word you say is exactly
what I'm expecting to hear.

I'm tired of this mask,
this one I've worn every moment of our pathetic romance,
the one I can't get rid of,
it seems super glued to my face,
Wanting, even me, to believe that it's who I am.

This all feels so fake.
But I keep telling you it's real,
It's all a lie.
I want to scream,
to tell you the truth
and say everything on my mind,
but you wouldn't even blink.

It's all rushing by
like cars on a freeway, all
the things I told you,
the promises we claimed we would always keep,
the questions you refused to answer.
I made you trust me through words,
and you fell for it,
you and everyone else.

Everyone who saw us,
saw me,
really saw only it,
the mask,
the outer shell,
the one who couldn't be broken.

No one ever got see me,
The one that wanted to melt into you arms,
beg you to never let me go,
kiss your tears away.
No one ever got to see her,
The girl in love,
the one that finally broke.