A poem written during a difficult period of my life. |
Hey big guy, up in the sky. Are you still there or is it too late? Will I die alone? What a horrible fate! Will I be with you when death is at my door? That's all I want I ask for no more. I've done things I regret more than anyone knows. No longer do I do the evil things I once did. Is it enough to be regretful and hope you forgive? Night after night the nightmares don't cease. When will I ever find peace? I'm just a man trying to live my life trouble free. But the demons of past deeds just won't let me be. Day after night and night after day, I feel my self slowly losing my way. They say stick to your guns and do the right thing. They say don't fall back into your old routine I work till I bleed and still my thoughts stray telling me that there is an easier way Turn your back on the law and what you know to be right creep through the shadows and avoid the light. For years these voices I used to obey thinking they could show me a better way. Tonight I stand tall and walk with my head held up high knowing that God will be with me when I die. I turned my back on all I once knew and did but the shadows of the past I'll never be rid so I live my life day to day keep faith in God and I pray asking him to help me keep my way. |