Conversation: Life, Time: Now

Conversation: Life, say whatever.
Time: 3:20

"One's life isn't anyone else's business, it's not some newspaper to be dished out of heartless despensers to heartless people on street corners and the sides of gas stations."

"My intentions were never supposedly "right or wrong". My aura and quick intelligence owned when I was a child gave me the wind under my wings that seemingly "still" drifts me along through every one of these counted days, counted, described, and hated."

"What I mean is, I never was clearly percepted, looked at for me instead of my talents."

"During the daytime I sit at home alone, but, what's more, I sit at home alone doing nothing but that."

"I have never taken a look at someone whether that person be clean, unkept, wealthy, poor or anything more my blank imagination could "masterfully create", and compared said person with myself, all the while admitting to my faults."

"Lonely walls, colored a light yellow, floated in my dreams then, I remember." I was comforted to sleep, good fulfilling rest, by a voice forever there, to be there the day I shall die."

"It's a strange one, I can't quite put my explanatory skills to work there, fixing you a nice description for the books doctor."
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Conversation: Life, questions
Time: 3:39

"What?"

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"Yes, of course, I'm still continuing with random pieces of my life, you'll just have to listen."

"Question?"

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"Well, all I think very lonely people do is... try to figure out how other people are." They can't really believe in being alive, as that new person they create for themselves,until they actually get to see other people in the flesh."

"Then, they begin modifying themselves to fit into whoever's address book."

"I think they should be careful, they probably weren't prone to catch even an eye flicker in public situations before branching out." They were most likely disregarded and labeled as reclusive pieces of screwy shit, excuse my french." They, I mean recluses every where should be careful when trying to find people."

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"Pyschotic behaviors?" I really don't dwell on the subject, next question!"

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"Doc, listen," I have said before that I simply will not answer some of the more... negative questions from the bunch you wish for me to contemplate a reply for and spit up."

"So, next question please."

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"Good, a more suitable and quite tasteful question." Let's see now..."

"I have once before tried, as you've said, "finding Jesus", and I have thought about church going before as well."

"That all changed when my fourth husband died of an ulcer in the 90's." You have to wonder though, did he ever love me, really."

"Even that I can't possibly know, I've no way of turning the time back for my query."

"What I do know is that I fell for him for one reason only, because he was the best musician I'd ever heard." And, after that chance meeting at his concert in Los Angelos, we could never be parted."

"But, he died three years later, and I inherited all of mostly what he owned."

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"I guess you'd have to look at it that way, why, I even felt liked blaming myself for everything, yet, I knew I couldn't have done such a thing."

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I think this has been enough for one day, I tire of being in establishments for more than one hour, good-bye for now."


(Walking out to the car garage.)

(In car), "I see very well what you've been doing doc, I see clearly now, I'll have to do something about this though, won't I now..." won't I..."