" From the Beginning Till No End"

" From the Beginning Till No End"

From the Beginning you were there for me, from the beginning you might not know this but your brother said that you had suthin in your heart that said you vowed to care for me. You had suthin bright in your eyes saying don't be scared of me, that Imma always be here. I admit from the beginning i was scared, scared you wouldn't care. Scared that I'd give you my heart and you'd treat me as a fling. That you'd toss me to the side like you did the rest, but something happened that wasn't supposed to. You took me to a place i wasn't familiar to. You showed me a side of you I knew I could get close to...

So I took a chance and got to know that side of you, then from that point on everyone knew i was the one that would always be by ya side to ride for you, damn it so deep that even Tasha knew I'd die for you. I knew your feelings were true that you felt the same exact way to. So then it became just me and you, doing those special things that lovers do. I even lost my virginity to you. We talked about things I couldn't wit no one else. You even knew things I tried to keep from myself. You taught me to love me and be there for myself. I guess you was preparing for when it was gonna be me and no one else. You made me see things no one else thought to see. You made me see things that you knew would be good for me...

So then we grew and we grew till everyone thought we couldn't get no better. Then out of no where shit started to happen we ran into some stormy weather. Things got crazy and we began not to talk. You had me going crazy taking long walks. I thought we were done, that you aint want to be with me. Then it all started to mislead me. Then we started to get back together again for months here and there, but things never seemed to work out, I finally told myself im done with him I swear.

Then we started to step out, go our separate ways you even met a new love Brittany I think was her name. You didn't really love her , you knew this was true, because in the back of your mind you know it should have been me and you. So you tried to get back wit me you even had Jamal get on the phone, but I knew it wouldn't work, at that time I had just wanted to be alone. Then you said : Ash don't be mad if I decide to move on". So I decided to accept I didn't think it was true. I didn't think you could live without me or me without you. But you did step out, stepped out in the worst way. You even tried to get wit Zuli remember that summer day. But you didn't do it to get wit her this you told me this was true. You did it to get back at me to make me realize that I still loved you. But after all that I still loved you from day to day. Intill you went and had that baby, wow is all I can say. Damn D you knew she aint love you. You knew she wasn't true.

Well You started to realize all of this a little to late. I had already moved on and this seemed like something you couldn't take. You told me it wouldn't last you'd give me at least 6 months at the most.Then I thought about it. I remember that night last month we sat on the phone and we fought about it. I mean this was the first time in a long time that we actually really wanted to talk about it. You told me we belonged together and wasn't nothing at all wrong about it. But something was wrong about it, hadn't you thought about it. You had a baby on the way, and your baby mama was already strung out about it. But then you thought about it. : Ash I can be wit you and raise Aaniyah to." So then the night went on, and we talked so much we didn't notice it was dawn. So then you said you had to go ,but Ash I love you though .Yea Yea Derrick I love you to, then you said , girl call me soon.

But This thing happened in an unexpected way. You died when no one thought you would. I mean you were the last person people expected would. Damn D why didn't you stay, but you know every missies you in their on special way. They say life goes on and hearts heal to. I don't know about that. But I do know that I will always love you. You sis said Ash it's time to let him go, damn I mean im trying Ang doesn't it show. But since this happened we all got tight, Me, tasha, ray and Cj to. See we are all trying to live life for you. So of course it's sad now, and will be for awhile, but we haven't forgotten that one day we will once again see your smile. When we'll all be together forever again. So this is the beginning but not the end.

R.I.P DERRICK HARGROVE
"YOUNG D"
9/10/88 TO 12/26/06