Just Another Moment...

I still check my e-mail
In hopes that you realize
How much you need me,
And I still set my phone
To ring for you at night,
As if by the slightest chance
You call,
Yes, I took your pictures down
But can't bring myself to throw them away,
Old journals full of our memories,
Clothes I can't bring myself to wear,
Jewelry that I put away,
Because they still remind me of you...
It's too painful to remember the stories
I don't get on messenger much anymore
I doubt you've noticed,
It'd be too hard to ignore you
If by some chance, you signed on too,
I replay songs that remind me of better times
Yet, I end up in tears
Because those times are forever gone,
I reread that fateful message sometimes
Just to remind myself that I'm better off...
Nights are so long these days,
Minutes tick by like hours,
Sleep doesn't come so easy,
So I lie awake because
Closing my eyes is dangerous,
Because the past becomes so real
I can almost feel the kisses
The touch of your hands
That low voice haunts me
The words cut like daggers into my soul
And there is no escape,
You're everywhere
I see you in everything
The moments that I think
I'm finally gonna be okay
I smell your soap on the wind
Or I think I hear your laughter,
And I'm back to square one
All progress put aside
I keep telling myself that one day
I'll start a day without thinking of you
I'll be able to glance at your picture
Without shedding a tear
I'll drive down Stubbs Vinson
Without missing you
But that day just won't get here fast enough.