Believe me

Believe me,
I never meant for you to leave.
Not like that in the least.
I should not have said those words...
It was something you should have never heard.

Believe me,
I'm sorry still.
though I know that won't fix this.
I'm sorry to your family.
I can never meet them.

Believe me,
I was trying to be nice.
I'm sorry that i was as cold as ice.
I know what you would say,
That it wasn't my fault.

Believe me,
I didn't care what the therapist thought,
Inside my heart,
It's still my fault.
Whatever they say doesn't change my mind

Believe me
I know it was wrong...
I refused to believe that someone like you could be gone.
I have forgotten all of that last day
All but those last words
I only said to go away.

Believe me,
I even remember your reaction,
The way you just smiled.
You smiled and said i was a good person.
I'm sorry i hated you for it.

Believe me,
when i knew you were gone,
I wished to switch places you.
I believed the situation was wrong.
It was not supposed to be you.

Believe me,
You were good,
I am depressed.
These emotions could never be suppressed.
I never should say those things.

Believe me,
It's been one year,
And i've shed many tears.
I want to believe you,
When you said i was good.

I believe you,
When you always smiled.
I hope you believe me,
When i say i'm sorry
I never knew those would be my last spoken words to you.

Believe me,
I wanted to hurt the person that hit you.
You died in the crash,
Your mom was in the IC.
Your sister was crying at school.

Believe me,
I'm sorry isn't enough.
I wasn't in the other car,
but my words cursed you,
I'll never see you in class.

Believe me,
when today i walked into class,
I expected to see your face.
I wanted to see that stupid smile,
I still want to believe this is a dream.

Believe me,
I'm sorry that i cried,
These tears still leak from my eyes.
I'm sorry it took a year.
I couldn't quite see how much that damned smile meant to me.

Believe me,
I wanted to be your friend.
You han't believed the rumors about me.
You didn't dispise me the way everyone else in the class did.
You smiled when everyone cursed me.

Believe me,
I didn't love you,
but that doesn't mean i don't miss you.
I'm so sorry is all i can say.
I should not have said go away.

Believe me,
I'm not a murderer,
I'm afraid the gods are punishing my cold heartedness.
I did say to go away,
I never meant for good...

Believe me when i say i'm sorry