A walking contradiction

I love to rock out and party
I am happy just to relax
I love to ride horses in the mud
I am a Purel girl
I love to scream randomly
I am sometimes shy
I love to watch fights
I am not violent with others
I love black and red
I am drawn to light blue and hot pink
I love horror movies and stories
I am into drama and romance a little
I love to be lazy
I am hard working if I am given the chance
I love punk rock
I am a bit of a country girl
I love goth boys
I am attracted to the popular guy sometimes
I love sarcasm
I am actually very sweet
I love to jump around
I am actually fairly calm
I love dirty jokes
I am a virgin
I love dark, wide jeans
I am secretly looking for a skirt
I love to talk online and watch tv
I am an avid reader
I love to be a tomboy
I am kind of a girly girl
I love to be a badass
I am a good girl
I love to think about nothing
I am actually deep and intuitive
I love to be unique
I am hiding a lot of who I am from everyone
I love to be the center of attention
I am a people watcher and sometimes I like that more
I love goth/punk/emo
I am casual and relaxed
It's not that the person I show people isn't really me, it's just the part of me that I feel comfortable showing to people because I'm so afraid of letting my guard down.  I don't let people know that I am actually a friendly person who loves life in general.