Alone

Alone

With all my friends around me
Softly whispering in my ear,
I still feel so alone
As if no one was here.
My mind has become my hideout,
For there I'm safe from harm.
Spending time hugging memories,
Yet still something is missing,
Way deep down inside.
Instead of facing these fears,
I prefer to run and hide.
So many heartfelt feelings
Sealed in my heart,
For each time I have loved,
My world gets torn apart.
This pain inside is nothing new to me,
Sometimes sharp and aching.
I try hard not to let feelings show,
So sure He would think I'm faking.
I know its not bad to stand alone,
And God knows how hard I've tried,
Holding jagged pieces of my heart,
While cursing my own pride.