Collection of my poetry, mostly experiences. |
Only You Only you can help me through, Only you can see... Only you can be you, The only one who can comfort me... I love the way you look at me, I love the way you smile... I love the way you can see, That this is all worthwhile... You see when I am happy, You see when I am sad... You help me not feel crappy, You help me not feel bad... I need you to be here, I need you to see... I need you to hold my hand, And always be with me... If you leave me here alone, I would surely die... But I know that you wouldn't do that, Because you are the one that makes me shine... Only you can release me, from this empty shell... Only you can cast me, in this lovely spell... Only you can release me, from this world of hell... Just a Joke You had to do it, didn't you? You had to just come into my life like that. You didn't see me, you just knew... How would I know what you were playing at? You spread rumours about me, You told everyone they were true. You really didn't actually see, Me in front of you, with my plea: How could you do this? You know that I love you. How could I miss, The way you were so untrue. You hurt me badly, I never thought you could. But now, sadly, I know you were misunderstood. I used to see you, shining bright. Now I see you, In a very different light. It was all just an act, Us going out, just a play. It was all just a joke, So you could dump me the next day. Do you know how much I loved you? Do you know how much it hurt? All of these mixed feelings, Kicked and thrown into the dirt? I know now it wasn't really you. That guy I loved? NOT TRUE! You were hiding behind a mask. I know, because I have asked! Stop Lying to me, my friend. I never want to see you, EVER AGAIN! Mixed Feelings I have just got to say, you make me feel O-Kay. You make me feel astray. You make me feel dismay. I have just got to speak. You make me feel weak. You make me feel like a freak. You make me feel unique. I have just got to let you know. You make me glow. My feelings show. Although, Nobody knows. About these mixed feelings. Nobody sees, These mixed feelings. Do you believe, That this is love? Or is it just part of These mixed feelings. I don't know how. You make me feel wow. I will now, Take a bow. You Chose Me She was looking at you, But you were looking at me. She noticed and said, 'Oh Woopee! Nothin' special 'bout her! What do you see? You can do much better. There's always me...' But you kindly refused, Leaving me amused, Leaving her to lose, I love you. You know she's beautiful, But still you held on. Now I know you really love me, Now I know you are the one. You turned her down, Just for me. You could've gotten such a pretty face, But you chose the girl with the case. The case of unknown love, The case of individuality. Instead of her, You Chose Me. Autumn Leaf (Limerick) A leaf falls from an autumn tree and drifts to the ground. There it settles, making no sound. It is the first leaf of the morning, While everyone's yawning, And it's only the first leaf of the round! A Big Chance One popular boy And one shy girl Their hearts reach out as their love unfolds No-one could guess that they're in love It truly is a gift from above As they walk, they hold hands They are taking a very big chance They both know where this can lead True love or True defeat The boy tells a joke and they both laugh They both know that they've chosen the right path No-one is around To see the love that they've found All is quiet, not a sound All is silent Not even a leave rustles There isn't the usual hustle-bustle It's the pair's love Because only eachother they see This boy is him, And that girl is Me. I love You I love you, darling, And you love me. We'll be together for eternity. Always think positive, Don't you forget. We don't have to listen to them. They are just jealous, That is all. They are just trying to make us fall. No-one knows how special this is. It doesn't matter, It's none of their biz. I'll always be here for you when you're sad. You'll always be here for me when I'm feeling bad. We both know that they don't see. See how special this love can be. We sit together every day. We sit in our own special place. No-one's seen us together there. If they have, they don't care. If they see me with you, They just say, 'They look so cute!' But no-one knows how special this is. It doesn't matter, It's none of their biz. I love you, darling, And you love me. We'll be together for eternity. Don't You Dare Don't you dare say I'm an ordinary girl. I am different in every way and ordinary isn't real. We are all very strange, in our own way. I will not change, not any day. I am just me, a weird, wacky girl. Individuality There's a fire, deep inside of me. No-one can put it out, It's my individuality. I am a country girl, Alas, the cowboy hat... I am a wacky girl, And I don't care about that. I am strange, But I am not deranged. I am weird, But I am not going to change. You can say anything you want, You can't put me down. You can be anything you want, But you can't bring me to the ground. There's a fire, deep inside of me. No-one can put it out, It's my individuality. Goodbye I am alone here Without a say There is no reason to cheer I am not feeling Ok What is wrong with me? Am I not like everyone else? Who can I believe? Can I even trust myself? It is all your fault The way I feel right now I feel like I'm not me anymore Like I have died, somehow This is not a good feeling You can count on that I feel like a loony, Like I'm crazy, But lets not chat I have nothing to lose I am not really here Now I have to choose Death over fear I know you won't miss me While I am gone In fact, You probably won't even notice Because this time I will be gone for way too long I am never coming back, you see Why should I if I am not even me? If there is nothing to be? I am Killing myself. How to do it? I'm not sure But I know you won't miss me Because all you think about is her Say goodbye now Actually, don't I'm saying goodbye Because I know you won't You won't ever see me again Believing all your lies The last words that you'll hear about me are: 'Sorry sir. She has died. No-one knows why.' Then they'll hand you a note that says: 'I loved you. But you betrayed me. Goodbye.' I'm falling for you I'm falling for you And I don't know what to do Should I tell you up straight Or should I just wait? Either way, I'm falling for you. You don't have a clue This love is so new (to me) It's right in your face A helpless case Either way, you don't have a clue. I didn't expect this But love isn't to be expected If we could just share one kiss I know that we'd feel more connected Just one holding of hands And I know you'll understand That I'm falling for you And there's nothing, at all, I can do Everytime you're near I experience a fear That I'll mess up and get it all wrong I feel a million ways So many I can't even try to explain And I know it must be love Because I swear you're sent from up above Don't you see Do you even care? You'll always be in my heart Anywhere, Everywhere Can't you even guess That I love you when you're near I love that fear My dear... I know we are great friends Of that I am sure But I know we both know That we could be much more... I'm falling for you I didn't expect this But love isn't to be expected If we could just share one kiss I know that we'd feel more connected Just one holding of hands and I know you'll understand That I'm falling for you And there's nothing, at all, I can do I'm falling I'm falling For you........ School (ABC Poem) Alot of people hate Back to school day 'Cause they have to face their teachers Deranged, weird creatures Essays overdue 'Finished Miss, its true!' Getting in trouble Homework doubles Ignorant people always going to the loo Just as we meet our friends Kids rush around as lunchtime ends Lazy teachers give you sheets Many Parent/Teacher meets Nothing can be worse than school Obvious reasons: #1. Its not cool Placed in seats away from your friends Quench of thirst needed (Till class ends) Really I don't see the point of school School is boring Too many rules Usually I always think, (Our teachers must be) Very sick (Of us) When we say 'My ankle hurts' X--rays are needed to prove it (They dont trust us) Yakking away about the end of the day Zzzzzzzz who likes school? ME!!! Like the Rest One of you left me I loved you so much But you just left Without even saying goodbye One of you tricked me Such a big crush But it was all Just a Joke Leaving me to cry One of you hurt me You didn't want to, but you did Because you messed with my feelings Leavin' me to wanna die I've been left standing Tricked into crying With a messed up head Just as bad as eachother I wonder who is next? But I don't think I should bother Because he'll turn out like the rest... Writing makes me feel good Writing makes me feel good It controls my rush of feelings Poems and stories and journals And all those secret dreamings It helps me to explain This huge rush of feelings The love and the pain All reaching to the ceiling I don't think of what I write I just write it down It just might Turn my frown upside down Writing really helps It honestly does Whether it rhymes or not It explains all the love Not in the mood Don't you see what you've done? How much damage you have caused? Now I'll have to start again, And try to avoid the wars. Why did you do this? It was going so well. I hope you miss me, Now just an empty shell. I needed you, ya know. Everyone thought we were perfect together. But now you make me feel so low. Now we're just like bad weather. I hope you remember the good times And guilty feel you should. I can't remember mine, But I'm not in the mood. Riverdance (Acrostic) Russian dancing; Irish dancing; Very difficult spanish dancing. Even a choir, Remember the orchestra; Don't forget the tap. I Admire that. Nothing makes them tire, 'Cuz they're always gettin' higher; Everybody clap! Silent Tears Crying silent tears I watch you leave Crying silent tears I do not speak Crying silent tears I think to myself Crying silent tears Isn't gonna help I thought that we were the best together But no one ever lasts forever The Gift My heart has melted All because of you It's in a good way This is so true You gave me a gift and I didn't know what to say You gave me a gift and looked away Can you see me melting because of this feeling Or are you too busy staring at the ceiling? I know I said it was weird but there was no other way To describe to you what I felt that day Forgive me for saying it's weird Because really it was the most lovely gift Our friends came round the corner but I hid it just in time Too bad because they thought we were pashing and laughed till they cried They said it was Okay that they didn't care But they were so wrong it really wasn't fair Since then I've loved you so much more than before So please love me back because you I adore The Very End I know we aren't together I know that we're just friends But I will always love you So love to you I send I know you don't like me that way But I always will So I hope you have a good life And good luck for finding the next girl I hope you find the girl of your dreams And when you do No matter how snobby she is I will be happy for you If she hurts you or breaks your heart I won't say I told you so But if you need someone to listen I'll always be here, you know Not even love Is as good as being friends Because love never lasts But friends stay all the way Right until the very end Did it ever Occur? Did it ever occur to you for one small second that saying 'I don't want to hurt you' makes it hurt even more? Did it ever occur to you did you ever reckon that later on in life I won't love anymore? Did it ever occur to you for one long minute the love and the pain that I've been through? Did it ever occur to you for one day that even though I love you your love is way overdue? No It happens every time None of you were mine I'd like to warn whoever's next Remember they're just like the rest It is all just a test Results are a mess You have messed with my head There, all has been said Bad Dream I'm gonna run away and hide But I still can't get away from your lies I'm gonna close my eyes and scream I hope this is all just a bad dream Even though it feels so real Somehow I'll convince myself I'll turn away on my heel And pinch myself to wake up in the real world But what is the real world? I get so confused Sometimes I want my dreams to be real 'Cause they bring me so much closer to you I can't tell the difference Is the real world really a nightmare? Are my dreams not really dreams? is the real world even there? Maybe I should just live in my dreams 'Cause I can't face myself out there I'm not a part of any team I'm lost in my own world somewhere If you notice anything wrong Just think of all you've done All I've been through And what that's made me become I Thought I thought we would be forever I thought we would stay together But I thought wrong. I assumed that you would stay with me I assumed we would last for eterninty But I only assumed. I thought, I assumed, But I got it all wrong. I thought, I knew, But you were lying all along. You tell me it's for my sake, but my crying makes the ground shake, I'm crying a whole lake, And now it's my turn to speak. You say you didn't want to hurt me, but if you told the truth before, It would've hurt much less. I thought you were different from the rest. Don't Pretend Goodbye, my friend. This is the end. Don't pretend you even liked me. I don't see how, I allowed you, But I do now. Get away from me. I'm saying goodbye, 'Cause you make me cry, make me wanna die, 'Cause I just can't be me. So go away, don't you dare say, that you may, wanna come back. All His Fault I know you like me and I like you too. But you don't know why I can't take the risk. I've been hurt too many times. I've been through much more than little white lies. If anyone hurts me just once more, once more. I can't be sure. But I bet I'll break down and cry, and say I wanna die, and you'll ask why, and I'll say: "It's all his fault." Just a Game Love is just a game. That has no rules. If you play, You're a great fool. Because I've played it so many times. And I always seem to lose. I couldn't call any of you mine. Because you all play me, get bored, and are gone before I even have the chance to say goodbye. The Best (Family) I wish they wouldn't do that. They push me way too hard. But it isn't my fault That I can't get what they want. They say I didn't try my best. Just 'cos I wasn't first. I say at least I did the contest But now you're making me feel the worst. Just as I'm at my high point. Happy with what I've got. They have to go and ruin it. With one of their stupid talks. I don't see why they do it. They make me feel so bad. I guess I'll have to get used to it. At least I'm glad. They ask why I say these things. As if they don't know. They just want me to win. Every single show. They want me the best Irish Dancer. They want me the smartest too. But I am really sorry. That's something I can't do. Irish Dancing Take one step Skip two three Please don't fret You'll learn quickly Paddy bar Brush hop down Now in the next part Your talent will be found Hard shoe now Entrechat Hop click down The end isn't far To the side Cut point back That's right! You're on the right track Heel heel stamp Twist two three You're a champ Compared to me Turn around Hop switch leap And now you know Irish Dancing!!!!! PROMPT: "Write a story or poem about finally getting something you've always wanted, but in the end, it doesn't turn out to be as great as you imagined." Real Friends I was talking to my friend. Looking into his eyes. Oh how I wish he was my boyfriend. He didn't even know. But I wanted to try. So I cleared my throat. Hey, friend, um... I need to tell you something. Even though it's dumb. So I started to talk. In full swing. And he watched me like a hawk. Oh, friend, I love you. I know you don't love me. But this love is true. He said yes. I knew it. I also need to confess. Friend, dear friend. I love you too. This is not pretend. So then we were. A couple dare I say. Everything we shared. But my friends all left. Said: You've changed in a bad way. We don't like it. Soon even with him I was alone. Couldn't take it anymore. The real me was gone. Then he said: this won't work out. Could we just be friends? I cried and I cried. To me he had lied. he was never really mine. Then one by one. My friends came along. And I said: I'm sorry, I was wrong Hope When everything in your life is perfect And you think nothing can go wrong You would never have guessed What your life would become Your friends are always there But the next time you turn They seem to not care They disappear; they're gone. Your family is supporting you Spoiling you with everything But then they won't pay for what you do Your talents your clothes your school fees Your teachers they help you with what you wanna be They give you special lessons nobody else gets but then they too turn away Why is everybody going away to quit? You are starting to lose all hope But you tell yourself not to give up You can't just sit and mope You still have enough to stay tough You'll be fighting for your life and everything is not alright but in the end you find a friend Who sticks with you no matter what you do And all because you didn't lose hope Discovered Hinda found out 'bout my poems today. She read them out loud and I wanted to fade away. My poems are personal can't she understand? They explain how I feel who I like who I am. They are the only things I can let go with. What was she thinkin'? It's none of her biz. So, she asks, then why'd you put them on that site? Oh I have no idea alright? After that I thought about it. I know why, because I'm anonymous. Nobody knows who I write about, who I am. So I can be myself without being laughed at. At least they appreciate them. I could tell them my whole life story and they would listen. Not like others who bring me to tears. On my site I can write without fear. So can you see now? I write my poems to let it all out. They might be depressing but that's my life. The love the lies the goodbye's the strife. They mean alot to me. So don't go and ruin it please just leave me be. Think Twice How do I cope when my deepest secrets are being revealed? How can I hope when my hopes and dreams are now not concealed? How am I meant to act as though everything's normal? It's now a fact that I'm trapped against a wall. What can I do now that they all know? To some it is wow to some it is 'so?'. What do they think about it all? Do they think it stinks or are they in awe? Actually I'd rather they didn't know anything. Because now I've lost one of my wings. I can't fly so freely anymore. I liked it much better before. Before they knew anything about it. Before I was discovered. But now they all know and I'm cowering away. I will never be able to face the new day. But the new day has come and I'm trembling inside. What do they think? If they ask why I write I will die. So I guess I'll have to be more careful next time. But the good thing is.......... I know now that they'll think twice before they say goodbye. In The Valley (Haiku) Sometimes the Valley With its beautiful green grass Helps me feel alive But in the winter When the snow falls softly down Its covered in white Which is the better? Is it sweet green or soft white? I will never tell How do I decide? Is it the view or feeling That I truly love? I think its the best When I am just standing there Enjoying the feel Can't Resist You make my heart beat fast My friends say that you won't last But now there's sha ky knees And you have to be a dream And then there's goo gly eyes My friends say you're full of lies But my head's full of you I'm hoping you love me too But I am not so sure I'm not sure if you do And all my friends talk about How cr azy I've become And I hope you say yes 'Cos I dont think you're like them All my friends warn me aw ay But I just can't re sist. Isn't it Clear? How can you say you love her when you have no idea? You've seen what happens haven't you? Isn't it clear? Do you even know what she has planned for you? She's cooked up a plan that will destroy your heart and mine too! Oh please don't be fooled by her! I know you think she loves you but I don't want you to get hurt! Listen please I know you think it's true but it's not! And don't wave off my claims as just jealousy okay 'cos I fought. I fought not to be jealous but I am and I'm angry. Not at you but myself for all of this jealousy. But don't buy her lies please she's just using you! Are you so lovesick you can't see? I know 'cos I've been through it too. But I have to get through to you and I'm not giving up! And hopefully you'll get it soon and you'll know it wasn't love. It'll Sting I feel like killing you, girl. He just doesn't get it. But you don't care, do you? Trust me, you'll regret it. What do you think'll happen when it all ends? You don't have any feelings for him. He doesn't know it's all pretend. I really don't care about your love life. But when it involves an innocent person, You better be careful. 'Cos if you hurt him, I mean even the tiniest thing you say or do that might possibly hurt him or me, You better kiss his butt goodbye, 'Cos when I'm through with you, You won't even want to hear his name ever again. Don't mess with people's feelings, girl. Especially mine. 'Cos I'm not like other girls. I won't just sit back and watch it happen in front of me. I'll actually do something about it. And trust me. It'll slap you in the face. And it'll sting like hell. So? So you kissed. So you hugged. So you said those few words. That's just so you. So you lied. So you tried. So it worked. So I cried. So I'm jealous. So I'm upset. So I'm insane. So what that I care? So I overheard. So you planned. So you wanna get over another guy. But it so hurts me watching him about to get hurt. So I'm the one that actually loves him. So you're just lying to him. So what about me. So what about what I think? So you fooled him. So you don't care. So he doesn't know. So what about what he thinks. So I need to say something. So I need to tell him. So I don't break down. So he doesn't get hurt. Just for Being You (Taking a Chance) Just being near you And knowing you're alive And wondering if you Will ever turn out to be mine I'm the best at dreaming But not as good at making my dreams come true Sometimes I forget the meaning Of everything I probably don't mean to you Looking into your eyes Is more than just looking into your soul You are just so sweet and bright Everything about you is just so beautiful I don't care if I sound crazy I don't care if I go out of my mind Because as long as you don't fade from me You'll always be what makes me shine Waking up to a new day And picturing your face Makes me have hope that it'll all be okay Makes me hope that my heart's in the right place Just don't abandon me Sweetness Don't do what the others did to me I'm trusting you not to be like them And I'm hoping this time my heart can see Maybe you think I'm hoping too much But I believe in you And this time I think I've had enough Of not trusting myself and my fear to lose So if I, just once, get to know what it's like To have someone love me too I'm trusting myself to try just one more time And I'm taking that chance With You Insomnia I can't fall asleep My eyes are sore I try to read But I can't see anymore My head is full of pain I'm warm but I'm shivering It's starting to rain My hands are now quivering I glance at my phone 4:30, it says I sit up and groan My heart full of dread Will I ever get to sleep? My limbs are aching My thoughts are deep My body is shaking I wrap my arms around myself I fall to the pillow in a heap Nothing can help Help me fall asleep I try everything From my head to my feet I try to get comfortable I even count sheep I sigh and roll over I'll never get a proper rest No wonder during the day I get so exhausted Okay, one more time I'll try just one more thing The last thing I can think of Is meditating "Relax, close your eyes And think of a place A place for only you For when you meditate "Now tense up your muscles And slowly let them go And fall deep into a trance That only you can know "Now you are relaxed You should inhale really deep Hold for ten seconds And exhale, that's it "Now your breathing is steady You can imagine your place There can be as many people you want But there is no hate "Now follow your feet They'll take you somewhere Somewhere you need to go What you need will be there" By now I'm so deep in my own trance I can't hear my own thoughts I think i'll find a friend, love, or romance But by far I was wrong I came up to a building All white, and not a single door But when I walked up to it There was a sight I couldn't ignore Through a window I peeked There was a lovely comfortable looking bed So that must be what I seek Oh I so need some rest But I couldn't find a way in No doors, and the window couldn't open Oh, how I yearned for some real sleep I had no way to get to that comfy bed So I paced and I paced And imagined being there In such a beautiful place Where I could rest And all of a sudden I was laying down On the beautiful bed Soft pillows, and no interruptions, no sound And I finally had a place to rest In no time at all I fell asleep And my sleep was full of dreams Mostly Jesse, Natasha and me All good, not a nightmare, and I slept deep But then a faint voice called my name Which I soon recognised as my nan She was trying to wake me for school But I wasn't done yet The Sweetness in my dreams said please don't go But I had to because it was a weekday- school I bid him farewell and prepared for the shock Of bright sun streaming through my windows I prepared for the day in a dream-like state I had found a way to fall asleep Already the memory of that strange meditation was fading away So I wrote it down quickly on some paper to keep That very night I lay awake My insomnia simply would not go away Again I tried to meditate But it was a one-off remedy, It would not ever work again, At least not in the same way So I try to fall asleep My eyes are still sore I try to read something But I can't see anymore My head is full of pain The covers are warm but I'm shivering I'm getting a migrain My hands are still quivering I glance at my phone 5:30, it says I sit up and groan Half an hour left I feel like I'm dead Will I ever get to sleep? My limbs are all aching My thoughts are so deep My body is still shaking I wrap my arms around myself I fall to the pillow in a heap Nothing can help Help me fall asleep Dancing Jumping, flying, defying gravity Turning, spinning, twisting your feet Positions, turn outs, blisters on your heels Step abouts, competitions, oh how it feels Teams and solos, state and national Comps, displays, concerts what a thrill Choreographing, practising, making up some steps Timing, rythm, in sync with your dance friends Capes and dresses, wigs and sock glue Tiara's and bubble socks, soft and hard shoes Jigs and slip jigs, light jigs and reels Hornpipes and set dances, the stage you will steal Velcro and bobby pins, hairties and snacks Full wigs and bun wigs, leotards and dance bags Dance schools and lessons, small schools and large In comps only dancers are free of charge Sweat and blisters, bandaids and bandages Strains and torn muscles, fractures and disadvantages Practise and hard work come before success Some aim for enjoyment, some for Riverdance Chatting with dance friends, sharing new moves Don't matter what your level is, it always improves Feeling the music, flowing out through your feet Keeping in perfect time, land on the beat Paddybars and skips, shuffles and toes Flap knocks and twisties, everything flows Flys and cut downs, turns, spins and jumps Stamps, knocks and heels, my favourite click downs Entrechats and butterflies, jump overs and gypsies Genie jumps and bicycle jumps, sometimes it's tricky Make sure you learn it, the right way Otherwise you'll flunk it, but that's okay Improvise and compromise, make your own steps Or work with some others, and make a team dance 2, 3 and 4 hands, 6, 8 and 12's 16's are the highest, but only for comps Aim past your limits, beyond your reach That way you'll test your abilities Find your own style, find your own beat No one can tell you how You Move Your Own Feet. I Still Wish On The Same Star He was always there for me. No matter what was happening, he was always there. When he left, he was there. It seemed to me he left this world when he was staring into space like that. But he was there. I still wish on the same star, every night, hoping desperately that I won't lose this feeling. It's beautiful. I feel like he doesn't know about it, that we never told eachother, that it's just there. It feels like it's always been there, and it's only flourishing now. The realisation that he's 100% mine is breathtaking. Literally. I have to actually think about breathing so I don't pass out. I'm still not used to it. I love it, but it will take some time to get used to the feeling of being loved that he's given me. It's new. He jokes around. 'I told you I loved you', as he runs up to me and my friend. Loved? Meaning her? Or was it love? I know what he means. But it stopped me for a minute. Froze my heart for that little second. Made me realise how much I need him. God, how I couldn't imagine life without him. Ever. And the dreams... So real. Beautiful and real. I'm living in a dream, it seems. Sometimes... I feel like it would be so different... if I went back in time. If I went back and changed even the smallest tiny little detail... even to do what I've always wanted to go back and do... If I had the chance... I don't think I'd take it. Because if I said goodbye to him, I wouldn't have had all those nightmares. And if I didn't have those nightmares... I wouldn't have noticed the unfamiliar blank face hanging in the shadows of my dreams. The person who I couldn't name... You see, he was always there. Even when I didn't know him, he was there. He was always the one to jump in and wake me up. To give me some hope. To let me believe, and break my promise. In that search for him. And I've found him. Fallen Angel You call me your little angel. And I so do love that name. But it doesn't suit me at all. I'm fallen. I'm a fallen angel. Fallen from the sky. Because a few years ago someone I loved left me He took away my ability to fly He stole my heart and broke my wings. When I was high up in the air. So now I'm fallen, you see. He sent me to despair. But then Cupid woke up. And gave me another chance. He gave me back my heart. So I could love again. Now my wings are back. I'm soaring high. And this time I won't lose. You're not saying goodbye. This time I won't lose. You're not going to lie. This time I won't lose. You are all mine. And this time I won't lose. My ability. To fly. Dreams I dreamt of staring into your eyes. I dreamt that you stared back. I dreamt that you had a surprise, That I would never forget. I dreamt you moved a little closer. I dreamt I didn't move back. I dreamt you gave me a kiss on the nose, And took my shaking hand. I dreamt you asked me, 'Maybe?' I dreamt I answered, 'Yes.' I dreamt I wasn't even confused, That 'Maybe?' isn't even a question. I dreamt you spoke to me softly. I dreamt you told me to stay still. I dreamt you whispered to me, 'I will always love you.' I dreamt you leaned in closer. I dreamt my heart beating fast. I dreamt my breaths coming shorter, As I saw my future flash past. I dreamt you kissed me slowly. I dreamt I kissed you back. I dreamt that I was wondering, How we'd gotten there from holding hands. I dreamt you slowly pulled away. I dreamt I wouldn't let you go. I dreamt you chuckle and quietly say, 'I'm not going anywhere, you know.' I dreamt we were lying there together. I dreamt of that beautiful place. I dreamt we told each other there would never be another never. But then I woke up and it's still the holidays. Fragile My first love was Mitch And I'm starting to forgive That he abandoned me to go somewhere else. He was everything to me But now he's history He's probably even got another girl. Though he promised he'd come back I've been waiting since '05 Now it's 2009 and he's still not here. Since then there's been so much Stupid crushes I had to squash Because I was waiting for him. See I believed him when he said He would come back, he would return But it had a huge effect on my life. I pushed out everything I blocked out everyone I cried and cried and cried. But was it worth waiting? I had enough time ahead But I just couldn't stand it anymore. I had to make a change So when Jesse came I knew he was who I was looking for. Because while I was missing Mitch I was still secretly watching out For anyone who felt different to me. I was looking just in case He never did come back Although I believed every second that he would. When Jesse told me His secret love for me I could not beleive my senses. Everything felt so right I believed him all right But the feeling was stronger than ever. I'd never had someone stronger No one lasted very much longer All those inbetween were people I just liked. And they never felt the same Or even near what i felt for Mitch But now there's Jesse and I'm psyched. Jesse felt even more Before I met him I would ignore Anyone else who came my way. I thought it was impossible To love someone even more But I do and he even feels the same. I'd broken a promise to myself. I wouldn't love anyone else. But I'm not giving up my chances this time. So now I think that's alright Because I've had my turn to cry But I can't lie I'm still fragile. All I Wanted... All I wanted to do was hold your hand... That's never happened before I don't get it I don't understand. You've given me so many new feelings that I just can't explain. But the best bit is I'm lovin' it and I reckon you're the same. Why do you think I want you so much? I see your sweet face and I just want to touch it. I've never felt this way and it's just getting stronger. I wished that I could stay with you for just a little longer. But we both had to go and it's a real shame. All I wanted to do was hold your hand... Trust I can be a little impatient I don't always say what's on my mind But that's because I have learnt What to tell and what to hide Maybe you'd feel a little different If for one day you stood in my shoes If for one day you could feel how I feel When I fail something or I lose I feel terrible and angry But I'm not the sore loser here You push me to insanity You make losing become a fear Because unless I win you hate me You tell me I didn't try hard You yell at me and scream at me But that's why I have a careful guard Why do you think I block you out? You never have anything good to say Why do you think I hide in my room? I would come out but if I did I'd pay There's nothing to look forward to in my life Yes dancing, yes school, yes friends But if I don't excell, be the top You just miscomprehend Why do you want to live through me? I'm not gonna make your mistakes Can't you just give me a little bit of trust? Maybe then I wouldn't feel this way I'm starting to hate my life Failing under pressure because of you Why do you think I get lost in my books? There's no other place to go You stole my privacy some time ago Stole my life away Made me tell you my passwords So you could 'check up' on me I'm not a stupid little girl I don't give out little details I don't add people I don't know I talk to my friends and forget the rest So the internet is a big problem You watch me over my shoulder all the time I can't do anyhing 'right' But how the hell do you expect me to? All I need is a little trust. |