A look back upon my relationship with my mother, and what I grew to learn |
My mother, my eternal heartbreak the one I thought I could never understand in the absences after you sent me to my father's the promises you never came through with the addictions that drew you away and all of the words I came to ignore the ones that never meant a thing. And as I grew older, I needed you more but saw you there less and less I thought that I would die deprived of the love of a family after my father turned out to be a ghost and his wife, a monster that haunted my days, I broke away from the holdings the ones that most people need to live I threw away my wish for family even though it hurt to let it go. Now in my life I can see the parallels my absences in important lives my own promises broken to so many people addicitions of my own that sometimes take precedence my words that no one holds true I see now why you went how you did because I walk the same path and I know I would be no different to children of my own except I will never have them because I never want them to feel this heartbreak and ultimately, this revelation. |