Null and Void

I always look up
And there's nothing there but the endless clouds to see
I always look down
And there's everything there but me
I look for a set of stairs
There isn't even a ladder
Prepare to jump
Even if I crashed it wouldn't matter
But this is no use
Barricade won't bust
I wonder if anything will make me see
That there isn't anything left for me
I wave to my family
Why won't they wave back at me?
I wish I had wings to fly
But then I realize
That I'm over
I'm gone
And this broken heart won't heal
Maybe this is all just a dream
In which I'm awake and can't scream
Then it hits me all over again
The fact that I'm over
I'm gone
I look to the right
I look to the left
Sinking feeling in my chest
Can't get this out of my head
Inhaling that feeling of dread

I never look up
Because there's nothing there but the endless clouds to see
I never look down
Because I know that there's everything there but me
I wonder if anything will make me see
That maybe there's a little something left for me
But until then
I know that I'm over
I'm gone