forever and eternity

i'd never done anything but love you.
and yet you still left.
i tried my best.
i really did.
but i guess it just wasn't enough.
i guess my feelings dont really matter.
you were the only thing that mattered.
and now you were gone.
every day,
every night,
i wonder,
what did i do wrong?
i had never loved anyone like i did you.
without you it was like a peice of me missing.
i piece of me i desperately needed.
i didnt see anything clearly anymore.
everything was a blur.
my thoughts filled with nothing but you.
i missed your hand in mine.
your eyes locked on mine.
the way you used to look at me,
gave me shivers up my spine.
i missed your touch.
and the fun we used to have.
like that one time,
atop the grand canyon,
you convinced me to look over the edge.
and i nearly fainted.
but you caught me.
and kissed me.
long and soft.
i told you i loved you.
right there.
you said you loved me to.
"for how long?"
i had said.
"forever, or eternity,
which ever is longer"
i miss your presense.
just knowing you were there.
no matter what.
you had my back.
thats what i had thought.
but i guess i was wrong.
because now your gone.
and not a day goes by,
when i dont wish i had you.
i was ready to die.
without you i was nothing.
with you i was something.
nothing mattered.
i never smiled.
never loved.
i was dead,
but living.
and that hurt the worst.
being dead inside.
i knew i would never see you again.
being friends was impossible.
i loved you too much.
i was ready to end it.
the pain.
i wanted to escape from it.
but then that one day.
that glorious day.
it had seemed gray.
but the sun soon shined for me again.
because that day,
i was saved.
you came back.
"hey there"
thats all you said.
i could feel my face light up.
i ran to you.
you wrapped me in your arms.
and whispered words i would never forget.
"ill never leave again.
not a day went by,
where i didnt regret what i did.
please darling,
my sun,
my love,
tell me you missed me to
and that you could find it in your heart to forgive me."
here in your arms,
i was at home.
my heart belonged here.
i answered quietly,
"i missed you. so so much.
and i forgave you long ago."
you kissed me,
much like the day at the canyon,
passionate, yet soft.
then you let go and took my hand.
i looked into your eyes.
and whispered,
"never again."
you stared back.
sending shivers up my spine.
just like before you had left.
"never."
"i love you"
i told him.
"i love you too."
he answered.
"for how long?"
i asked.
he smiled.
"forever or eternity, whichever is longer."