Black Sunshine

Black Sunshine


It was the truest form of friendship
I had ever known
The bond shared by you and me
I knew my heart could never feel alone.
How I wanted to tell you then
Your smile filled me with a tortured light
This love of mine,
The one I call black sunshine.
My soul was not complete
My hands empty without yours to meet.
My love, you could not see
The tears I shed of bitter agony
Here beneath the smile,
This love of mine, the love of black sunshine.
I saw the way you looked at her
I yearned for you to glance at me the same
And from your lips to hear
Your sweet voice call my name.
In shadows, the black crawls through
covering the light in starry hue
I weep to see what is mine,
The love I call black sunshine
Though I knew it could not be so
That your love you had given to another
Still, with each day passed my love increased
A flow that could never cease.
What then can I do,
To make you see
That all this time I have been alive
All my love I have given to thee?
In silence I slumber
For there are things I wish to tell
That is you who carries my heart
And you who knows it well.
Someday the light will be greater
Than the black that seeps in me
And disappear the moment in which my soul did pine
For the love that is black sunshine.
Each glance you give her
You cannot know
Breaks my heart you carry
Fills me with immortal woe.
Though love should not a burden be
These chains, these bars!
A tortured prison I have created for me
A wired cage of misery.
One day I will tell you
When skies hover, draped in grey
When these eyes of sorrow close in eternal sleeping
No longer bound in mortal weeping.
These hands that once held this love so fine
Will I no longer call
My love of black sunshine.