I HATE THE NIGHTTIME

I hate the nights

it's 4:30 am
still awake, have been
since 8am yesterday

Can't sleep, want to but
my mind won't let me
insomnia sucks, it takes
all the life out of me

I see my family all sleeping
snoring, cuddled under the
blankets, grand baby's sleeping
well, like baby's

And me? I'm here in this big
house awake, wishing like hell
I could just close my eyes and
sleep like everyone else

I want to sleep peacefully and dream
I never dream, why? because doctors
say I don't ever enter "REM", the
state in which you dream when sleeping

My body is tired, my mind is
restless therefore it won't let my
body sleep.

So why not take sleeping pills
ha! that's a joke, I've tried everything
under the sun and moon still
nothing works, i can take sleeping
pills like m&m's and still I will be
awake

I hate the night time, it only means
I will be up alone with my wondering
about all that has to be done during
the day, I will be grumpy and snap
at everyone because I'm tired

If I nap during the day, once my body
just can't take anymore, I feel guilty
like I'm being lazy and I feel bad so I
don't nap when I can because I don't
want to seem like I'm a lazy bitch

Why can't I sleep, i want to lay next
to my husband and just sleep the way
he does, but yet I can't, my legs will
move and my mind will wonder and my
eyes won't shut

Fuck you nighttime you suck!